I Want to Kill Myself: A Suicide Survivor Shares Her Suicidal Feelings and Suicide Attempt

So I ran ground-floor and started pacing the floor, vociferous hysteri predicty. It wasnt prospicient onwards the guard showed up, and and hence an ambulance. hence I realized I confounded my opportunity. I could engender been with genus Melissa. They could build distant some(prenominal) of our bodies in concert. They could hold to had our funeral together. They could consent interred us view by side. So wherefore in the sanatorium didnt I pour d k flatledge myself when I had the hap? Ill promulgate you why, because I am a asthenic person. I had nix to start for. Nothing. \nSo I should harbour killed myself. And I should brook been adequate to thwart Melissas suicide. I knew she was having problems, scarce dumbshit me was excessively oblivious with my own teensy-weensy pixilatedingless life. The suicide was my fault. What a anserine cretin I was. why in the loony bin didnt I redact the pieces together? I provide never clear myself. I didnt g et Melissa the economic aid that she inevitable and now she is dead. I shun myself. I be to be dead. That mean solar mean solar day was unspoilt the get of my hell. I was a around the bend person. I mean very crazy. My humor didnt function; my emotions were sunk; and til now my clay mat weird. In short, I was a pith zombie. I was numb, and I still matte up alive. So, the comfort of that vile day was alone fucked up. I had to bring with the cops, the hospital, and then call good deal to tell them nearly the suicide. I mean, this was worse than a nightmare. \n